Are my decisions in life based on His words?

2 things happened in the last 2 weeks (I think) that kept me thinking and thinking. Just can't let it go.

1) I had attempted to 'share' the knowledge acquired during service and Sunday school on scientific creationism. Midway through the conversation with CY, I realised that I wasn't 'sharing', but rather 'flaunting' with an empty barrel. It became apparent to me that my 'walk' was inferior to my 'talk', and my 'talk', nothing worthy as well.

2) Whenever we meet up, YH is always able to share on how the Lord speaks clearly to him through His words, how His words are THE deciding factors for his decisions in life. I was prompted to look back on the decisions I've made the past year, and reflect on whether I had clear indications from Him on which route to take.

I liked to relate the experience of how God was very clear in 'telling' me to go to Shanghai back then, but I realised it was not from His words. I made the decision to stay and get married because of what He said in Deuteronomy 24:5 but what did He say to the marriage in the first place?

I realise I'd been guilty of sign seeking. Instead of diving into the words, I'd been looking for situations and circumstances to direct me. I've only sought to pray, but not sought for answers through the right way.

I'd like to make it right. From today onwards.