Dear
妹妹,
Ten
whole beautiful years of loving you. Of being your Mama. Of watching you thrive,
grow, live, learn, love. When I learned I was pregnant with you, I was so terrified
because I had gone through so much with babies. I was afraid that you wouldn’t
be well. But God proved me wrong. Again and again.
In
the first month of your birth, you and I spent so much time in the hospital, JUST
US. You will not remember it, but there were the days and nights that it was
just you and me and God, and Mummy would hold you so close and pray that you
will be safe and healthy. I am not sure how much of your illness you understand
at this age, even though you have been on a bunch of pills since the day you
were born. It has become such a part of your life that it is not queer or
unusual or out of the norm, and you remind me when I have left out any medication
in your daily doses.
There
was so much heartache, grief and tears shed over your condition, but now I
comprehend it fully. ‘And we know that all things work together for good to
them that love God’, is true. You are the testimony that God has given to us to
show us that He is in our lives, shielding and holding on to us. God used YOU!
Wow. That blows my mind. That shows how special and unique you are to Him, just
like how you are to us.
You’ve
been a Mama’s girl since the day you were born, and still today, at ten years
old, you are. You’ll go to bed earlier if it means “Mummy will bring you to
your bed.” Your eyes sparkle when Mummy can lie down with you, read, pray, do
something funny or hold your hands. You are probably the most sensible,
obedient and teachable one among your siblings, always eager to please Mummy,
and troubled when you think I might be upset with you. Your love for Mummy
shows through small gestures like remembering a pack of Pokka Red Tea for me at
inhouse lunch because you know I like it; constantly telling me you love me,
giving me hugs from all round, and planting a kiss on my lips after saying good
bye. Thank God for such a nature! Your resilience and perseverance shines
through the times when you trained for gym, pushed through hours of CCA and
still requested to do Berries to better yourself. You may be petite, but you
are feisty!
And so My Little One, the one Highly Favoured, Greatly Blessed, and Deeply Loved by God himself, hold on to your obedient and teachable spirit, hold on to your love for your parents, and your faith in God. We look forward to many many, many many more years with you.
In His
love and mine,
Mummy
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