I always brighten up around LW. She's a great source of cheer. Someone with so much empathy, someone who makes me feel good about myself. A dear friend, a precious mate. So hard to find these days.
We're more often preoccupied with bringing out the best in us rather than in others. I see the reverse in her. I wonder if I can be like her, one who brings cheer and hope to others, one who has empathy. I am often so caught up in my own world, my own thoughts, my own troubles. And only feel the guilt after an onslaught of events or unhappiness. Like Ah-ma's 'stroke'.
Self-centredness is so natural, so instinctive. How to 'train' myself to think of others first? Pray? Yar, it'd be good to pray. Pray for Christ-like virtues and values. Pray for wisdom. Pray for other-centeredness. I just cant pray enough, can't MAKE myself pray harder, pray more, pray consistently. I suck at being a Christian. God, how can I be a better witness for you?!
Ah ma got stroke arh, need help advice, counselling ? can always ask me ya, how she coping, and her caregivers coping?
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