We are exactly 2 months away to EDD.
It is highly evident in the increasing squirms and pushes from the insides. There was one night, sitting on the sofa and feeling the slight discomfort from the shiftings, a strange realisation that this motion image could be OUTSIDE instead of inside. Really awesome realisation. 不可思议的领悟。
Well, in preparation for the inaugural delivery, the Mummy has been diligently clocking in pool frequencies in faith of smoothening the process. In her humble opinion, it beats being on all fours for 10 mins everyday to convince TLO to NOT rest on Mummy's backbone to meet Daddy first (then Mummy mah).
The Mummy is pretty determined to make it smooth.
Just like how she is determined to make exclusive breastfeeding a HUGE success. The adjective 'HUGE' as cold water has been poured on her for more than she can count with her fingers. "I started out determined too", "you must be prepared, it's not easy", "don't be too disappointed if you can't".
Each time, she pauses at how she should react. Should she appear more (over)confident? Convinced by their experiences? Or act as if she's hearing it for the first time?
Each time the cold water is poured, mixed emotions well up. Should she BE confident? Or should she BOW down to the 'reality' of it all? Is she BEING overconfident?
No matter her reactions and emotions at that point in time, deep down inside her, the stubborn streak has never gone away. She refuses to believe that God made babies to drink powdered milk.
Hmm, I think there is nothing wrong with being over-confident. In fact, how do we even tell when we're just being 'confident'/ 'overly-confident'? Sometimes I do feel that when it comes to certain things I may appear to be overly-confident as well but it may just be me repeatedly reminding myself to be confident.. wonder if I'm making sense, hehe. Anyway, ganbatte! Any effort will pay off! :)
ReplyDeleteIt makes absolutely sense to me! Coz tt's EXACTLY what I think, that by sounding sure vocally, i am consciously reminding myself that I AM headed in that direction and I WANT to be successful in that endeavour. Rather than being wishy-washy abt it even when expressing myself!
ReplyDeleteThat's good then. I believe in self-fulfilling prophecy.. I'm behind you!
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