As with the Law of Diminishing Marginal Returns, the waiting this time round seems less 'expectant'. I vividly recall that with J, I was so sure she would pop early to meet us. I think I was even counting on 37 weeks or something like that. Haha!
There are nights when I fall asleep thanking God for this simple blessing of the entire family hugging each other off to dreamland: Didi somersaulting in me, J hugging me from the front, and the Better Half hugging us from behind me.
And as we passage closer and closer to Didi's arrival, I know pressing this button to restart the journeying into another child's phase of life will mean a different set of challenges to both J and us. We love her, immensely. There is never a time I look at her and not thank God for blessing us with her. Sometimes to the extent that I wonder why I want to have another child when I can be contented with just having her.
But, despite all the uncertainties and the heartache we've had to go through this time round, we truly learned and experienced that "all things work together for good". It is no doubt cliche, but truly, only "when I am weak, then am I strong". I have often told my better half how I have never had any great trial or tribulation in my life. And how I sometimes think about and fear what God would one day throw in my path. The few 'spanners' that came my way this past year has often reminded me of the scenes from the movie Dodgeball. I guess the initial throbbing pain and bruises from the hard knocks prepares us to "take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses". Okay, I admit, to 'take pleasure' in them is such a high calling! But really, we could get so good at receiving those spanners/balls that we just smile and embrace them as they keep coming!
"When I meditated on the word Guidance, I kept seeing “dance” at the end of the word. I remember reading that doing God’s will is a lot like dancing.
When two people try to lead, nothing feels right. The movement doesn’t flow with the music, and everything is quite uncomfortable and jerky.
When one person realizes that, and lets the other lead, both bodies begin to flow with the music.
One gives gentle cues, perhaps with a nudge to the back or by pressing lightly in one direction or another.
It’s as if two become one body, moving beautifully. The dance takes surrender, willingness, and attentiveness from one person and gentle guidance and skill from the other.
My eyes drew back to the word Guidance. When I saw “G” I thought of God, followed by “u” and “i”. “God,” “u” and “i” dance.” God, you and I dance.
As I lowered my head, I became willing to trust that I would get guidance about my life. Once again, I became willing to let God lead.
My prayer for you today is that God’s blessings and mercies be upon you on this day and everyday.
May you abide in God as God abides in you.
Dance together with God, trusting God to lead and to guide you through each season of your life.
I Hope You Dance!"
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