Today is THE moving day. The day to move before tomorrow arrives. We're supposed to have disapparated by the time the AMC folks return from their teambuilding tomorrow.
From level 18 to 19. To a temporary position while renovation works go on. Whilst there are mixed feelings, I'm kinda 'unaffected' by it. Not sure what to think of it. It's like going through a motion, an almost daily chore kind of feeling.
I've always felt like a nomad in this organisation. Never felt I'd be here for a long long while. I'm surprised I survived 2 years when I din even think I'd stay beyond 2 months. And I have LITERALLY been like a nomad since I joined, with 6 different cubicles under my belt, and moving on to the 7th.
There have been various bouts of an impulsiveness to just, go. Exit. Escape. Run away. Get out! Just like how it was with my previous employments. Somehow I'm always preserved past the 2-year mark. Only God knows why.
I wonder if it is human nature to wonder what God has in store for me when I'm put through such thoughts and situations. I fear to read too much into my emotions, or not live my life fully in such circumstances. Blessing or bane? Wonderful or worrisome? Enjoy the moment, or exit the current state of matters?
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