There are all kinds in this world. And all kinds are shaped by circumstances and situations.
The good old moral is to adjust your attitudes and reactions, and not to be affected or perturbed by external circumstances.
The good old moral. The same old story. Unchanged. Unaffected. Everlasting. Like how God is.
He refuses to let go of me. Nah, not once. In even more layman terms, He's making life difficult for me.
It makes me wonder if I've done anything to offend Him. Or that I've been making my decisions without Him. He's unhappy that I've not sought Him enough, not prayed enough, not consultative? Or what?
There was the gown. A long period of calm. Then comes the funeral. Then a possible re-scheduling. Then the band and songs. And the lack of a parent's attendance.
What's next man.
I'm trying to numb myself to all these. ALL. Immuned. Unaffected. Just...go with the flow. MY wedding right? But it's ok. YOU want this, YOU get this. And YOU. You there. YOU want that right? Ok, YOU get that. Or you, you here. YOU say this cannot right? Ok we'll take it out. This? This can, but minus the lyrics. Ok we'll follow.
Never mind la. Alternatively, if you don't want to be bound by all these restrictions, don't take this route la. I asked for it ma. I wanted this route, the cards are all laid out. FOLLOW, or else.
So, in the end. I'm not numb to it at all. No, I'm not. Not numb. I'm angry, I'm upset, I'm angsty. But there's nothing I can do but to allow the circumstances to rule me, my behaviour, my wedding. It's in the face. You don't do this, I'm outta here. You don't postpone, I ain't coming.
Can I be numb? Please?
Matthew 21 : 18 - 19
ReplyDeleteI might be stating the obvious to you but i'll say it again anyhow. Leaves on the fig tree indicate that the fruit is ripe. Thus this particular fig tree symbolised the Jewish leaders at that time, following the rules to the letter but in actual fact deceivers and hypocrites.
I wouldn't dare say that you are in the same category as them. Just feel that maybe you shouldn't focus on the leaves portion too much. Is it so important that your marriage procession must make such an impactful statement for Christ? Is doing that in anyway going to help in the Great Commission, to spread the good news to unbelievers? Personally i don't think so. The important thing is to sanctify the marriage and i guess this is where your pastor comes in. But who is he to say which "customs" should be followed etc. It's all open to interpretation unless of course he is God's messenger or something.
All your issues with him seem to be grey area issues and who is anyone to judge you in whatever context? Our only judge in God himself.
As for the unforseen circumstances, accomodate where you can otherwise just bochap it. Life is like that isn't it. Don't always feel that God is putting these blocks before you. Anyhow even if everything turns out just as you planned, i'm still going to raise my hand in objection on the 1st. So the best of luck to you. And wishing you a happy happy birthday!
ps : Perhaps a few years down the road and where you'll glance through your blog post again, you'll probably have a good laugh out of it. Take it easy lar!
Tks bro. I'm touched :)
ReplyDeleteBut you're still my covering officer for workplan when I'm away for honeymoon. Ha.