I tried to pray/talk to Him for the past 2 nights before I knock out in bed. And I couldn't make myself.
It was like having a cold war with Him. I consciously knew He was there. Perhaps even waiting for me to say something, but I just ignored Him.
Ya, I'm angry.
It was bursting in my head "I tried my best, I'm not wrong, so why are You punishing me?"
"And even now that I'm being barred from what I wanted to do, I'm not rebeling or angsty."
I'm just... upset.
He could have made it easier, provided a straight solution, or even just clear the path for me. But He just did not.
Hard Times by Jamie Owens
ReplyDelete1. Is the rain falling from the sky keeping you from singing? Is that tear falling from your eye, ‘cause the wind is stinging?
Refrain: Don’t you fret now, child, don’t you worry? The rain’s to help you grow so don’t try to hurry the storm along. The hard times make you strong.
2. Don’t you know, a seed could never grow, if there were no showers? Though the rain might bring a little pain, just think of all the flowers.
Bridge:
I know how long a day can seem, when storm clouds hide His face; and if the rain dissolves your dream, just remember His amazing grace!
3. Don’t you know, the sun is always there, even when the rains fall? Don’t you know, the Son will always care, when He hears your voice call?