累了就休息

“每个人到了生命某个阶段，总要为事业打拼，有的人幸运，只须付出很少，就得到很多；多数人际遇如牛马，付出很多，才可能得到一些；更有人运气不好，付出不见得有收获。好不容易达到顶峰或是创出一个较好的局面，回头来看，真是万般滋味上心头。”

“辛苦过的人，不一定最有走下去的意愿与勇气，如果累的时候可以潇洒抽离，那是幸福。但多数的人都没有选择的余地，不是得为了62岁还是65岁拿退休金的问题烦恼，就是放不下，不甘心，所以继续撑下去。”

“累了就休息吗？休息后还能回来吗？”

The above reads off from <我报>. Found it quite meaningful and thought-provoking.

I've never had to battle financial woes or engage in politics to ensure survival in the corporate world. Nicely put, I choose not to; otherwise, just plain fortunate that I never had to.

Can't be bothered la.

It's the internal struggle to be in rein of matters and to be in control of circumstances that often tires one out. I suppose. Tired but refuses to let go. Sian le but just won't allow that other person to take over.

Pride. Power. Position. Ptui. (paiseh for being crude)

But there's also fear. Fear of replacement, displacement, obscelence. Fear of not working hard enough. Fear of incompetency. Fear of the complex human relations to be handled. Fear of not handling it well. The fear of fearing.

累了真的可以休息吗？