Risk-Aversion

To do or not to do?

It's a question I often ponder over.

Or is it indecisiveness?

The fishes that I inherited from J are hovering along the top of the waters, apparently due to a lack of air. I was told that the inheritance is self-maintaining and requires very little or no effort to upkeep it. Which I had assumed that little knowledge is required for the survival of this tank.

But nobody told me I need not put in more food for the fish to survive over the weekend.

The murky tank and breathless fishes are bothering me. I don't know what is the best way to salvage the situation, and I don't know if I want to clean up (literally) the situation.

Let it remain murky and hope that one day it clears up by itself? Make myself change the water even though I really don't care to? What if the fishes die? Will I feel responsible for it?

I DON'T want to feel responsible for things I did not do, I DON'T want to bear the guilt over consequences that I did not bring about, and I DON'T want to be upset over stuff I couldn't care less about.

Can I?

I can't.

PS: I've never been much of a risk taker, not in my blood to be so. But I just lost alot of it yesterday so maybe I can seriously consider taking some risks with my life.