Courage

During one of our many bible studies lessons back home in Singapore, Bro HS once mentioned something that I agreed with wholeheartedly. That a person should learn to do self-reflection often to constantly remind ourselves of certain traits and / or tracks that we focus on or deviate from.

In my less than 2 weeks of arrival, due to the absence of 'real' activities (a job included), I have had much time to ponder over much 'stuff'. While cycling, while cooking, while surfing the net, while listening to the TV (yes, I listen more than I watch it), etc etc. I think about, why I'm here, why I'm doing this, what else can I do, what more can I expect. And so on.

Over dinner last night, I shared with the Spouse a product of my self-reflection, that the perfect irony in my current situation is that, though living expenses here are 2-3 times higher than back home, I am 'mentally comfortably' unemployed and not worrying about it. Back in Singapore, it was as if I could not have a choice to leave my employment, or to take time out to choose to do what I want. It is extremely difficult (again, mentally) to gather the courage to just, do it. If I want to, that is.

After dinner, we counted to figure how we might have enough cash on hand to pay for a car, and eventually got to a sanity check on our expenses to date in these 3 weeks. It was not a figure that we felt was 'good' but we did not go away feeling 'mentally uncomfortable' with just 1 concrete income. We were just resolute to keep a tighter rein on what we spend from now on.

I hope this courage stays with us. The courage to depend on Him and Him alone, no matter unemployment and any other finance-related situations. To "stand fast in the faith ... (and) be strong (courageous)" (1 Corinthians 16:13). To fully comprehend that there is a peace in the heart AND mind if you know you are where He wants you to be.

"And he said unto her, Daughter, be of good comfort: thy faith hath made thee whole; go in peace." Luke 8:48