Today marks the first day that everyone is in school, and I came home to an empty house, without Z still in bed waiting for me to rouse him for school. Driving home from drop-offs, that realisation had already hit me. And thoughts ran through my mind on that one final piece of thankfulness writing that usually floods the socials year-end which I didn't pen.
Counting my blessings came to mind. Even though I have been through quite a fair bit myself as an adult, in the past year, I have heard stories and experiences that gave me new-found respect for the people who shared them with me. These sharings reminded me to reflect on my life growing up, and mindfully count my blessings, one by one:
I'm blessed with good parents:
My father was a hardworking man, and in the early days when he was supporting his parents, his many siblings, and a young family, he worked hard enough for us such that we never knew poverty, or even hardship. All we remember of our childhood were days of waking up dark and early for 'morning walks', family travels, and good fun. Even though he used to smoke and drink too much, we never knew a bad temper, much less abuse of any kind from him.
My mother did not have an easy time marrying into a big family and assimilating into one. In spite of her outgoing nature and fiercely independent character, she willed herself to stay home and pushed aside her desires to achieve something for herself in her younger days. I believe there was a lot of self-internalisation and suppression, which manifested in a temper and impatience that I did not empathise with when I was a child. Even when she had differences and difficulties in her marriage, we never once witnessed any loud arguments or physical altercations between them, and never were we in fear of the possibility of a broken home.
I'm blessed with close siblings:
Growing up four different personalities, we could have easily walked off in our paths to hang around with others. We remain tightly-knit, and I can only say, that must have contributed to why I am raising four different personalities myself today. Each of us bring to the extended family, support, tolerance, complementary strengths, and most of all, love.I'm blessed with a strong marriage:
In a course I attended last year, I recounted to the class that in our 15 years of marriage so far, we have not had any confrontational arguments or fights. Notwithstanding our sin nature and my personal failures, prayerfully we continue this harmony and stability as we step into every coming season in our marriage.
I'm blessed with loving children:
My First Love has a temperament too much like mine, and I tend to overlook her positive traits. This past holiday break, she has out of her own will, participated in the church youth camp, and despite the age perceived to be hanging outside the home with friends engaging in activities that might have caused us worries and tension, she has not once asked to go out with bruhs of any form, and has mostly just stayed home to mind her own business.
My tenderhearted Biggest Fan has stayed his form, collected an outstanding character appraisal in his school report book, and continues to try his hardest to assure me he will do his best in the major leap to overcome this year.
The Littlest One has leapt over many a milestone and medical challenges in her short 9 years of life, and I believe, will continue to do so in the hands of the Lord. She has also proven many times over to be the most resilient and relentless kid in the household.
The Sumo looks up to his siblings tremendously, enjoying their company, albeit a little too much at times to have that teeny weeny bit of anxiety when he is on his own. But I know he is coming into his own little person, and will very soon join the ranks of the talk-big-talk-back macho boys.
In spite of their differences, they can fight too hard for my liking, but they also love each other fiercely, in their own small ways.
"Count your blessings, name them one by one, Count your blessings, see what God hath done"